So, am going to try to work my way back up to where I was — but admittedly, that will take a long time (if it happends at all). In the meantime; is time to scrimp and save and live uncomfortably poor. God life is fun. Still, I am glad to be back there.. I am so good at my job there - and even after being gone about 10 months; everything came back to me instantly upon coming back. I didnt even really need training. I love the feeling of being able to do the job with my eyes closed & hands tied behind my back. So I am just overly thrilled to be back (though i never thought I would say those words).

Next, I rented some movies at work; one being “Killer Drag Queens on Dope” which was quite amusing. It stars Alexis Arquette (from Surreal Life, etc). I really find it quite amusing and am tempted to buy it. Not sure if its the BLOCKBUSTER employee purchasing addiction, or if the movie just gives me satisfaction with my current life situations. (Being dumped for the 3rd or 4th time now by the same person — that is next)

And finally; was dumped again by the same guy for the 3rd or 4th time. Apparently this time because “I get attached too quickly”. This after he sends me an e-mail saying that he realized he ran off on me several occasions before but says he really wants to make it work because I’m a great guy.” Then he also proceeds to tell me that we have nothing in common (excuse me? WTF?!! BULLSHIT, but if YOU believe it - GREAT!) and that I’m slutty. HELL-FUCKING-O; I have only been with 5 guys in my life. Most of the people I know cant count on one fucking hand how many people they’ve fucked! I hadnt dated anyone for over a year before you and you call ME a slut?! FUCK YOU.

Sorry, obviously some of those words are meant for him. I doubt he will read this; but still — I need to vent it before I go on a rampage.

All of this bullshit has inspired me to write down some of the things in life that have always left a mark on me and shaped me into who i am and therefor explain my oddities. People dont understand me, and they likely never will; but at least I can vent and possibly help others that have (or are) going through some of these good/bad/tramatic things..

Anyways, that is all for now - I hope everyone is having a great night.

However, its not right to ignore my other projects; so I have added a new wallpaper to the collection for download. This wallpaper features Marilyn Manson from the “Mechanical Animals” era and the music video ‘I Don’t Like the Drugs [But the Drugs like Me]’. I actually made this wallpaper like 2 years ago, but never posted it for some reason. So here goes!

For more information (or to download the new wallpaper) see: http://sinistar7.com/home/marilyn-manson-stuff/

The s7 network now has FREE web-based / Internet Relay Chat (IRC) chat! Introducing the IRC4Fun IRC network! You can either use your favorite IRC client and connect to irc.IRC4Fun.net (port 6667). Or; you can also use the Web Chat! Check it out today!

Well, let’s go through the reasons:
• She was ordered to meet with a drug counselor. She didn’t.
• She was ordered to submit to drug testing. She didn’t.
• She was ordered to enroll in parenting classes. She didn’t.
• And last Friday, Commissioner Gordon prohibited both Spears and K-Fed from driving the children unless they had a valid California driver’s license. TMZ posted video of Spears cavalierly driving her kids around Malibu violating that order.

She was also required to sign the judge’s order. Could you guess? She didn’t.

Good! Is good to see some action is finally being taken; though I don’t know that she will learn anything until her ass is behind bars. For amusement, see what Perez Hilton has to say about “Unfitney”.

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britney fans… close your eyes.

so i totally missed the VMA’s on MTV and such tonight, but couldn’t resist looking up the (as i knew it would be) impending sucky-ness of Britney Spears.  now, i will admit that at one time i was a fan. but recently?  yuck!

it was awful.  everyone was saying:

“Just wait until you see the first 15 seconds, and you will be drawn back into Britney Spears all over again!”.

THAT is a load of CRAP!  you people owe me a refund of my life spent staring in horror!  i have never been so tempted to turn the channel in the first 15 seconds of a music performance!  if you can even call it that!  she totally was not singing, just lip-sync’ing, and doing a HORRIBLE job at that!  ooh, and she has blue contacts now..  good choice, but still doesnt make her anymore easy to look at.  and the wankering about the stage was not “dancing”.  and the whole song is practically her saying “Gimme More” and groaning (which is hard to watch after eating; so be careful!)

i was definately not impressed.  i have already seen people excited and totally “digging it,” but i really cannot understand that.  here is a link to a clip of her live performance on MTV: Check it out (Remember, don’t eat first!) OR; I’ve taken the liberty of finding it on YouTube — click it below.

had to share my disgust - that is all.

edit 9/10/2007 @ 10:47am: HAHAHAHA!!!  You go, Perez Hilton!  Check out his review here!

edit 9/12/2007 @ 10:30pm: while i usually do not share the same opinions with carson; i had to post this clip - as it was very similar to my reaction while watching the “performance”.

however, of course when i run to where it should be (alphabetically) — it isn’t there!  so i asked a store employee, and he told me that the system said that they did have it in stock.  he looked a bit more, couldn’t find it still - and with other apes asking questions, he had to give up.  he did take my name and # and told me he would call me if he did find it, and that he felt truly awful for them not having it after i drove all that way.  i wasn’t upset with him or the store, as i worked at BLOCKBUSTER for 3+ years; and knew how people were when it came to movies.  so, i decided to use the “Video Store Customer Logic” and look for it.  sure enough; it was in the E’s — dropped by a customer that either didn’t want it, or their monster demon seed kid picked it up and set it down.

so all ended well.  i got my movie, and i also got a boxset missing from my collection; Frasier (Season 2).

that concludes my adventures for this evening. 

have a good night, everyone.